Living on a Prayer...

Ever since I was born my mom had always been their for me. When I got sick she would give me medicine, when I felt down and started crying she would be their to pick me up. My mom always told me she loved me and was always their to help me up when I was down. I never really gave it a thought, I would always yell at her and tell her she was the worst mom in the world, but that wasn't true. A couple years ago, when I was in the 4th grade my mom went into coma for five days. Those five days were the worst I had ever felt in my life. I felt like giving up and like my heart was being ripped out of my chest, I remember crying myself to sleep every night, and I remember praying to god and asking him to save her, just to give her another chance at life and me another chance to make up for all the bad things I ever said to her. I would tell God how sorry I was and how much I loved her. I would always say that I would never do anything bad again, and I would never lie. The day she woke up was the biggest relief I had ever felt but was also the saddest moment to this day. The reason for this is when my mom woke up she couldn't remember anyone, she couldn't even grasp my name. I could never explain the pain that I felt on that day and you will never know how bad it made me feel. It's been five years since and she has come to remember me and everyone else. The other night I was lying in my bed talking to God and reminiscing on my life. For some reason the prayer that I prayed to god when my mom was sick was in my head. I kept thinking on how I said I loved her and I would never be mean to her again and I realized I didn't keep that promise. I realized after my mom came back I forgot about how much I cared and I looked at her as if she would be alive forever. But now as I am writing this, she is dying. She has brain tumors and is having kidney failure, it is not likely for her to be alive by next Christmas. Everyday that passes is one day closer to never seeing her again. It hurts to know how much pain I caused her in my life and I don't think she realizes how much she means to me. I pray for her every night and I believe that God can hear my cry. I have come to learn that you need to Cherish people and not focus on the bad things that have happened but the good things. Even when my mom does pass on I know she'll still be here for me. But then again you never know, God always surprises us.
I love you mom, now and always.

GRADES!

I AM SO STRESSED OUT! My whole life my dad has been nagging on me to do well in school because it will pay off in the future. Now that I am in high school, that truly does apply, because high school is what will determine your whole future. I'm so scared about doing well, and I keep nagging about my grades. In my mind it's not an option to get below an A. When I grow up it's my dream to be a brain surgeon and in order to accomplish that I have to get all A's. As of right now I have 5 A's, and 2 B's. I hate that. I hope if my teachers (English, and Spanish) are reading this they will help me out and give me some extra credit. :). Anyway I think I'm going to go study for my math test now.

adios!

I remember...

This past couple weeks has had its up and downs. I made new friends and lost some old. I remember when I would look at my friends and think to myself how lucky I was and how I knew they would always be their for me, but things always seem to change. Last year I had a friend who was truly what was the definition of a "best-friend". She was the person who I always went to for everything, because she would always give me advise. She would encourage me when I was down, and she would understand me. I remember when ever we would get in fights and although it was my fault she would be the one to apologize. She always told me "to forgive and forget." I always told her that sure, OK I will, but I never truly did. I remember when I was crying all night because of something that happened at school and she was their for me.

Its been two months since I last talked to her. Now that I have started a new school I have met some pretty cool fun people. Up until last week I had been happy, I went on with my life as if nothing was wrong until I got into a argument with one of my new friends. Its been a whole week and I feel like I've completely lost a friend. If I learned anything from Brianne it should have been to forgive and forget.
To bad it's to late.

Mumbai Attacks

I was watching CNN the other day and it was talking about the attacks in India. It said that many people died and lots were injured. I feel horrible about this and I can only hope and pray for the family's who have lost loved ones in this horrific incident. Many innocent people have died due to the reckless violence of another. People need to just grow up and stop thinking about destruction just because you don't like something. I mean the people who died had life's and family's and people who cared and loved them. It's not someones job to end another life no mater what. I am thankful that no more had to give their life and I would like to give thanks to everyone who has suffered a lose in this nightmare.

CHANGE HAS COME

On November 4, 2008, America elected its first black president. Barack Obama. On this day many people all over the world were rejoicing, whether is was because they beleived that racism was over or because of "change". In my opinion I beleive that although Obama is president racism is still alive. People all over the world were also outraged that Obama won just because the color of his skin. Obama diserves his victory because he worked hard and he showed that he had the intalect and determination to get what he wanted. On this day after he was elected president, a new perspective of life was introduced, this perspective was that anyone, with any race who has the determination can accomplish anything if they put their mind to it.

GOOD LUCK OBAMA!!!!