Living on a Prayer...

Ever since I was born my mom had always been their for me. When I got sick she would give me medicine, when I felt down and started crying she would be their to pick me up. My mom always told me she loved me and was always their to help me up when I was down. I never really gave it a thought, I would always yell at her and tell her she was the worst mom in the world, but that wasn't true. A couple years ago, when I was in the 4th grade my mom went into coma for five days. Those five days were the worst I had ever felt in my life. I felt like giving up and like my heart was being ripped out of my chest, I remember crying myself to sleep every night, and I remember praying to god and asking him to save her, just to give her another chance at life and me another chance to make up for all the bad things I ever said to her. I would tell God how sorry I was and how much I loved her. I would always say that I would never do anything bad again, and I would never lie. The day she woke up was the biggest relief I had ever felt but was also the saddest moment to this day. The reason for this is when my mom woke up she couldn't remember anyone, she couldn't even grasp my name. I could never explain the pain that I felt on that day and you will never know how bad it made me feel. It's been five years since and she has come to remember me and everyone else. The other night I was lying in my bed talking to God and reminiscing on my life. For some reason the prayer that I prayed to god when my mom was sick was in my head. I kept thinking on how I said I loved her and I would never be mean to her again and I realized I didn't keep that promise. I realized after my mom came back I forgot about how much I cared and I looked at her as if she would be alive forever. But now as I am writing this, she is dying. She has brain tumors and is having kidney failure, it is not likely for her to be alive by next Christmas. Everyday that passes is one day closer to never seeing her again. It hurts to know how much pain I caused her in my life and I don't think she realizes how much she means to me. I pray for her every night and I believe that God can hear my cry. I have come to learn that you need to Cherish people and not focus on the bad things that have happened but the good things. Even when my mom does pass on I know she'll still be here for me. But then again you never know, God always surprises us.
I love you mom, now and always.

GRADES!

I AM SO STRESSED OUT! My whole life my dad has been nagging on me to do well in school because it will pay off in the future. Now that I am in high school, that truly does apply, because high school is what will determine your whole future. I'm so scared about doing well, and I keep nagging about my grades. In my mind it's not an option to get below an A. When I grow up it's my dream to be a brain surgeon and in order to accomplish that I have to get all A's. As of right now I have 5 A's, and 2 B's. I hate that. I hope if my teachers (English, and Spanish) are reading this they will help me out and give me some extra credit. :). Anyway I think I'm going to go study for my math test now.

adios!

I remember...

This past couple weeks has had its up and downs. I made new friends and lost some old. I remember when I would look at my friends and think to myself how lucky I was and how I knew they would always be their for me, but things always seem to change. Last year I had a friend who was truly what was the definition of a "best-friend". She was the person who I always went to for everything, because she would always give me advise. She would encourage me when I was down, and she would understand me. I remember when ever we would get in fights and although it was my fault she would be the one to apologize. She always told me "to forgive and forget." I always told her that sure, OK I will, but I never truly did. I remember when I was crying all night because of something that happened at school and she was their for me.

Its been two months since I last talked to her. Now that I have started a new school I have met some pretty cool fun people. Up until last week I had been happy, I went on with my life as if nothing was wrong until I got into a argument with one of my new friends. Its been a whole week and I feel like I've completely lost a friend. If I learned anything from Brianne it should have been to forgive and forget.
To bad it's to late.

Mumbai Attacks

I was watching CNN the other day and it was talking about the attacks in India. It said that many people died and lots were injured. I feel horrible about this and I can only hope and pray for the family's who have lost loved ones in this horrific incident. Many innocent people have died due to the reckless violence of another. People need to just grow up and stop thinking about destruction just because you don't like something. I mean the people who died had life's and family's and people who cared and loved them. It's not someones job to end another life no mater what. I am thankful that no more had to give their life and I would like to give thanks to everyone who has suffered a lose in this nightmare.

CHANGE HAS COME

On November 4, 2008, America elected its first black president. Barack Obama. On this day many people all over the world were rejoicing, whether is was because they beleived that racism was over or because of "change". In my opinion I beleive that although Obama is president racism is still alive. People all over the world were also outraged that Obama won just because the color of his skin. Obama diserves his victory because he worked hard and he showed that he had the intalect and determination to get what he wanted. On this day after he was elected president, a new perspective of life was introduced, this perspective was that anyone, with any race who has the determination can accomplish anything if they put their mind to it.

GOOD LUCK OBAMA!!!!

Child abuses.

Every day people go and live their life. They wake up, make coffee, take a shower and go to work. They hangout with friends and laugh. They gossip about people and how weird they think they are. People judge others everyday. No one can say they never judged someone in their life because the truth is, we have done it every since we were little kids. Everywhere you look you see people judgeing something about you, wheither it's the way you look, the way you dress or the way you act.

As all of this judgement is going on, people dont realize that their might be a reason for that person being that way. They could be going threw alot, weither it's not having a real family, being affected by poverty ar even getting abussed.


Two days ago I was sitting in my house with one of my friends, we were laughing becuase of this girl who wore the same thing everyday and how she looked as if she had shaved off all her eyebrows. While we were laughing I felt wrong, I felt as if I was commiting a crime and I was going to be sent on death row. I suddenly stoped laughing, and told my friend that my dad said no one could be over, so she left. Later on one of my best friends called me and told me about a book she just read and how it was one of the best books she had ever read. She came over, gave me the book and told me to read it.

A Child Called "It" was truley an insperational book. It made me think about all the people who I walk passed everyday that can be going threw things I couldn't even imagine. And how I would judge them on the stupidest things. While I was reading the book I couldn't beleive that that actually happend. It made me sick. I couldn't stop crying, it made me want to be a better person.

A Child Called "It" by David Peilzer is an aspiring book that shows determination through a little boy's eyes as he tells an unforgettable story of the many abuses he suffered at the hands of his alcoholic mother and the averted eyes of his neglectful father. As a young child only his dreams barely kept him alive and motivated to go on and fight stronger. His alcoholic mother found many "games" to play with him as a way of torture and she rarely gave him the luxury of food, which would only be scraps that even the dogs would not accept.

This book was truley an american master piece.

sources:

http://www.bookrags.com/essay-2005/9/18/201017/895

TWILIGHT FAN

In early 2008 I was introduced to the best book I had ever read. It was called Twilight by Stephanie Meyer. It is about a girl named Bella who moved from Arizona to Forks Washington, to live with her dad. She starts going to school and meets a boy named Edward and they fall in love. The Catch is that he is a vampire and he lives with his fampire family. Edward is in love with Bella and her blood smells the best that he has ever smelt. Unlike other normal fampire families his family and him don't drink human blood, but drink animal blood. In this book their are many adventures. Bella almost gets killed by a vampire named James but Edward saves her and kills him. This action is what brings the next couple books. New Moon, Eclipse and Breaking dawn, in which I can proudly say I have read atleast three times each. In my opinion Twilight is the best book of the series. On november 21,2008. I am really excited because the movie is coming out. But at the same time not. I dont think they picked the right person to play Edward so in my mind that messes up the whole thing. If anyone has any commentary about the series let me know.

p.s TEAM JACOB =]

Christopher Columbus revealed

Who is Christopher Columbus? That is a question I have finally answered. Growing up I was tought that Columus was the guy who discovered America, I was tought to look at him as a hero. But I have come to think other wise. In my history class I learned that he was an evil man. He lied and cheated his way to the top. He sailed to India and took them as prisioners and claimed that he discovered the land. If you think about it how can you discover something that was already discovered? If anyone has a answer to that let me know. He also told the Indians that if they didnt fill a cup full of gold each day he would cut of their hands. In my opinion this shows that he dosn't desearve reconition for being a bad person and lying. He also took credit for things that werrn't his to take, he did this because he wanted power and in order to get power you have to be rich. In my opinion I dont think we should celebrate Columbus day because he didnt even discover anything and he killed and tourtured people. At the begining of his exploration their were 10million indians, at the end thier were 1 million left. I dont think a murder should be rewarded with good things. If you have an opinion let me know? Do you still think its worth celebrating Colimbus day??

Spanish

Hola!

Spanish is so hard. In class were learning about the basic things you need to know in order to have a conversation. It's hard for me to study spanish. If anyone has any advise on how to study for test's let me know. I love learning spanish because I think it will be a verry good thing to know in the future because spanish will be the secongd most spoken launguage in the United States. I beleive if I lern spanish there will be many more oppertunities for jobs in the future. I really want to go to spain one day but I know if I dont learn spanish now it will be hard tio know what is going on , and what people are saying. Anyway If you have any study advice let me know.

adios